"Something's Up" In America's Big Berg
featuring
Selected Poems from The Alaska Mystery Collection
and The Tree Series
by Paula Marie Rose
Author's Note: Any misspellings, or incorrect punctuation, in my written words on this site are due to my lack of brushing up, and there doesn't seem to be a spell check feature on this site building template. I've looked up several, and edited the obvious errors. Getting the material published is more important.
All new additions are added at the bottom of the page.
June 17, 2014. It's been an interesting year so far; things are really beginning to heat up around here in Charlotte, NC, and not just the weather!
I received an email dated January 19, 2014 at the bottom of the short series below.
It wasn't the first time someone has commented on this website, and I immediately recognized the signature style of: gibberish, nonsense, rambling statements, poor punctuation, with a few grains of truth tossed in. It was a style frequently used by Jeff, another person in this story, and most of the "leaves" who replied to my Poetic Personals Ads from 2008 and for a few years after; some are listed under several chapter headings on the left sidebar. I've heard through the grapevine that it's a style used by groups and organizations with multiple letters in their acronyms, and names. I have referred to those who have contacted me as part of the SAE, working for Elf Central. (link below for more info.)
What a nice compliment!
Where is she now? What was her name?
It's interesting how some people can enrich our lives.
What was it that I wrote and you seemed to have read, which compelled you to write to me?
Sent from far away? i hope your real not a hoax to many people pretending to be someone thier not. but i must take a chance ive let to much go by. although my time is up! the calling card has been delivered so i must stay and settle up! anything to protect you i will do! Although my heart tells me i may be to late! these poems are a bit old. ive felt sorrow and plenty of pain, it was nothing now that ive experienced regret! ive already had a sample so i know whats next my time is over thats a sure bet! I have been blessed im not all alone at first i thought spys but thier not. the ambulance is for me. they are my angles from above they have been here for over a year 24/7 a crew of two in this frigid wheather ALWAYS! there. God bless them all! i pray your ok if im needed i will be easy to find my life has been hacked now ive gone viral theres no coming back. like a message in a bottle that says i love you. no matter how long i knew you or how little time we spent for me that time is special , times i dont forget these are the blessings i take till when we meet again@?
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I'd never met anyone by the name of Cecil, but you'd never know that based on the words he sent in his initial email, and most of the 100 plus he has sent me, as of June 17, 2014. The CONtent of the first email was odd, and his words implied that he and I had met in person previously. Many of his emails I have replied to, and a few I initiated myself, when the thread became too long.
Cecil stated in later emails that he lives in Yakima, WA, but this statement in his initial email: "I have been blessed im not all alone at first i thought spys but thier not. the ambulance is for me. they are my angles from above they have been here for over a year 24/7 a crew of two in this frigid wheather ALWAYS! there."
is rather telling.
Directly behind my sister's condo is a large warehouse, which I call the Chinese Laundry. The large sign next to the building used to read "Presbyterian Laundry," which was recently covered over and left blank, except for the address. It currently houses purple ambulances and some staff, about 65% encircled within a chain link fence topped with razor ribbon. It was cold here in January, altho frigid might have been an exaggeration.
I've lived at this location since September of 2013, and rarely hear even a quick blast of a siren coming from any vehicle in that building, (altho I did this AM as I pulled back my top sheet to head downstairs for a cup of coffee.) I'm a light sleeper, and I've never seen razor ribbon topped fencing around an ordinary building that houses ambulances for EMT purposes only. But, a guy I've never met, who claims to live in Yakima, WA, shouldn't know where I currently live, nor what's around me; so we can chalk this example up to a coincidence.
His words laid down a fabric for a pattern I'd seen before, and for years; most of you will see the patterns also, as I provide more examples, throughout this chapter.
CONfusion, veiled intimidation, DoubleSpeak, and reversing meanings of words or statements, is one such method; it is frequently used in their verbal and written communications with those they find to be disagreeable, undesirable, or objectionable, for a variety of reasons.
All together now, Readers! "I don't believe in coincidences."
I have truncated the surname he used in the email address. However; during the now infamous "Girls Night Out, from June of 2007, I did mention the name of Cecil, and a few other details about a surname, as one who would be contacting me in the future.
Someone has chosen to use that name, and it was approximately 6.5 Years, after I first predicted that name would be floating into my life. That's pretty amazing, as I was sitting at a table in a mostly empty local watering hole with 2 females, back in 2007, in Juneau, Alaska. So, who has a logical explanation? "The walls had ears," or there's an incredible amount of information that floats through the ether.
I'm an ordinary American middle aged white woman, who is unemployed, and simultaneously a retiree. I worked for the State of Alaska for many years when I was younger, and was eligible for early retirement when I turned 50 years old in March of this year.
No reason at all why anyone should expend so much time, effort, and most likely truckloads of money, to somehow seem to know everything I do and say, while at home, and away. This is the USA, after all. Freedom of Speech, and Freedom of the Press; supposedly still Rights which we Americans should still be able to enjoy.
I've heard, via a word, or more, "The They" find Frozen Fiefdom and Run, Tara, Run! to be published works which "They" abhor. Could an attempted censoring of the words of American citizens be the dreaded "New Normal"?
Historically, the same tactics I've had used on me have been around for decades; my Mom used to almost whisper a few of them to me, back when I was young, and strange things happened to people in our small town.
Another commonly used tactic was to have people labeled as mentally ill, in some shape or form, and either have them institutionalized, and/or be subjected to medical experiments, with or without their consent.
Mom said to me, when I was less than 10 years old: "First they'll call you crazy, then they'll take your children away." Mom also said, "This is how They operate when people don't do what they're told, or when people object to what's happening around them, or to them."
To my ears back then, Mom's words didn't sound right; we lived in Alaska, which was part of the United States of America, and folks were supposed to be able to speak freely, and to never have to worry about such things, as long as they were obeying the laws.
Apparently, the secretative and much whispered about ,"The They" had their own set of rules, and used the laws on the books to their advantage, against people who were actually innocent, or somehow set up for something. I specifically remember one instance where my Mom knew someone had been wrongfully accused of something, as she was practically crying, as she said: "He wouldn't say Shit if he had a mouth full of it." I don't recall who she was talking about, but it wasn't anyone related to us, but another resident of our area, who had apparently displeased "The They." When I asked Mom why didn't other people help the man?, she replied, "Because the same or worse will be done to them."
I was sent outside to play, and felt very bewildered, as adults seemed to know something was very wrong, and weren't doing anything to help another.
Ta Da!!
My child custody suit from October of 2008 to March of 2009, is a modern day example of what went on in the Big Berg in previous decades. While the Alaska court system didn't directly label me as mentally ill; the attorney hired by my former spouse used an exceptional amount of legalese breeze to portray me as mentally unwell, unsound, and an undesirable member of society. His main mission was to prove beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I was also an unfit mother, for my then 13 year old daughter.
The affidavits of my former spouse, my eldest daughter, my former best friend, and some siblings were also created and submitted to the court, along with the affidavit of a local Juneau psychologist, who based her professional opinion of me solely upon a few chapters of this website. As of the date she signed her affidavit, on October 17, 2008; this website had approximately one quarter of the material it currently contains. None of their affidavits were in my favor, of course.
Fortunately, I was living in Los Angeles, CA, during that time, and Mom's words from my younger days had prepared me for how this kinda gig was pulled, back in Alaska, in earlier days. I also knew from her words, that "something" would most likely either be staged, or somehow the court would be used, to have me subjected to a mental health evaluation; which certainly would not be in my favor, and could easily have resulted in my being institutionalized, or worse.
Based on Mom's words from my youth, and from the lips of some folks I'd met in Los Angeles; "The They" had me on their list. One person in L.A. even said to me that I was a "high value target."
I wisely chose to attend the hearings telephonically, and sent a friend to be an observer for the final hearing. I knew what the outcome would be, prior to the months the snowstorm of papers came down from the Big Berg, and it was exactly what I predicted.
Lobotomies were another whispered word I heard when young, and I had to ask what it meant. Through some of the emails from Cecil, it appears that the mentally ill card is still one of the most played, or at least in the top four tactics used by "The They." I suppose the need for human lab rats never really is satisfied; as he specifically mentioned the movies Charly, and One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.
From: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: cecil_mad <cecil_mad
Sent: Wednesday, May 14, 2014 8:56 AM
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
I like Jack Nicolson as an actor, but I still haven't seen that movie; interestingly, you're not the first person who has made reference to it while having a verbal or written exchange with me. That's an interesting pattern.
From: cecil_mad <cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Wednesday, May 14, 2014 12:22 AM
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
I THINK of you as my friend and I like you even though you drive me CRAY CRAY LIKE THE ONE THAT FLEW OVER THE _________ _ _ _ T?
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad <cecil_mad
Subject: You seem to be more friend than foe;
Date: Tue, May 13, 2014 3:23 PM
We've all said and done things we regret.
I didn't close the door on love; I simply slammed it shut in the faces of liars without any regrets. It certainly sounds as if your struggles with women are bringing you much anguish. Why waste so much time on women who don't seem to appear to feel 1/5th of the same about you? One cannot make another love them, nor can they wish and hope that another will find them lighting a flame of mutual attraction; it's there, or it's not.
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From: cecil_mad <cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 13, 2014 5:51 PM
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
Sometimes people say and do things they live to regret and hopefully they learn but no-one should close the door on love being self sufficient isn't always good we are better together dispite our differences I always thought after my 2004 breakup with a woman I loved and still do even though it ended painfully fotr me I only allow myself to benifit from the
good and knowing she loved me. I thought I would never love like that again but I did and still do but I can't understand why I love someone who I KNOW loves me yet never let me love her was she just insecure or was I a fling I did tell her to guard her heart. Wish I hadn't but I am going to give her her space as hard as it is to do that it's harder to get ignored I thought things might have been going where I wanted but maybe I misunderstood her reaction when I brought her the card and one red rose I thought I saw that smile inher eyes I'm sure I did but might be she thinks I have more baggage than benifit but she is and always has been kind I'm not closing the door on her just stepping back a bit. If she or any other woman cost me money fifty grand or fifty million it wouldn't matter I can make do with or without money and I canalways make more but I can never replace her she's worth more to me than any amount of money I'm happiest when with her
just talking and listening everywhere I go I look for her even though I KNOW she is at work I don't know what to do or say if there is anything I can but I can't stop wondering did I ever really matter but I feel like I did even though she never let me love her.I think I'm Charlie brown as I can make her smile and I'm snoopy cuz I have been a dog but I am Cecil and you are ???
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad <cecil_mad
Subject: You seem to be more friend than foe;
Date: Tue, May 13, 2014 7:12 AM
I presume you mean love in the M/F sense of the word. I've had 2 unsuccessful marriages, and 1 live together boyfriend;
all ended poorly, and I don't feel the need for another. I like some men, and enjoy their company now and then, and
that's enough.
As far as love in the family and friends sense; just have a review of Frozen Fiefdom and what my family members said about me, along with my former best gal pal and my daughter Valerie, who all claimed to love me, etc.
If that's what folks call love for another, they can keep it.
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On Tue, 5/13/14,
cecil_mad <cecil_mad wrote:
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
To: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Date: Tuesday, May 13, 2014, 8:47 AM
Maybe you might try opening up to someone let them in let someone love you seems to me your to closed off I THINK YOUR scared not that it's bad just not benificial I don't sleep well most nights until it catches up
Sent from my HTC -----
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The topics in some of our email exchanges might seem to be a bit disjointed, and not make much sense to most readers, but keep in mind that DoubleSpeak is the norm for those working for Elf Central, and I'm not too shabby in using it myself, at times.
Cecil regularly stated that he and I had met, but I've never met anyone who used that name. Finally, in the email below dated May 15, 2014, he signed it as "Rachel."
In December of 2013, I was doing a bit of Christmas shopping in a ROSS store in Alexandria, VA. A man approached me, and began to chat me up, and told me a story of sorts. He asked me a few questions, left the aisle for a few minutes, and then returned to hand me a slip of paper with a name and telephone number on it. The name on the paper had the first name of Rachel, with a surname. He said if I ever needed anything, anything at all, to call that number and ask for Rachel. The entire encounter smelled fishy from the get go, so I thanked him, and we exchanged a brief Happy Holidays hug in the aisle.
I never told anyone of this encounter, nor the slip of paper, nor did I ever dial that number. I don't believe in coincidences, and wasn't surprised when Cecil eventually used the name of "Rachel."
From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 15, 2014 8:40 AM
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
bell is a word I see and hear a lot yet don't know why
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad
Subject: You seem to be more friend than foe;
Date: Wed, May 14, 2014 8:11 AM
I thought it might be you.
When someone tells me a story and some of the components aren't correct or something negative rings a bell, I notice.
A number on a piece of paper might still be around, and my male parent worked for a phone co. so I know transpositions when I see them.
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From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Wednesday, May 14, 2014 9:59 AM
Subject: Re: You seem to be more friend than foe;
I want to tell you a story. It's a birthday fable. A little bird decided one winter not to fly south with the other birds. It began to get cold so the little bird took off south all alone but the weather was very cold and her wings began to freeze the bird was unable to fly and fell to the ground in a pasture wings frozen and unable to fly our feathered friend thought it was the end. Then a cow came along and crapped on our little friend. The manure began to thaw out the little bird warm and happy the bird began to chirp and sing. A cat heard this and went over and found the little bird pulled her out and ate her. The moral of the story is someone who craps on you is not necessaryaly your enemy and someone who pulls you out of a pile of shit is not always your friend. But if your warm and happy in a pile of shit KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! Ttly Rachel
Sent from my HTC
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Several of the emails from Cecil seem to have a veiled reference to something unpleasant happening to me in the future; it's another common tactic used by the Elves. Ya think they'd get bored using the same old, same old, but originality isn't their strong suit.
From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 29, 2014 3:40 PM
Subject: Re: In case you missed receiving this;
I don't ski either but you will hug this tree again!
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad
Subject: In case you missed receiving this;
Date: Thu, May 29, 2014 12:21 PM
Unlike Sonny Bono, I don't ski; nor should anyone expect to find me wrapped around a tree.
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From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 29, 2014 2:50 PM
Subject: Re: In case you missed receiving this;
Baby it's you! By the Spaniels and for your precious love the meaning of charly I got you babe. Shrink wrap that.....
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad>
Subject: In case you missed receiving this;
Date: Thu, May 29, 2014 9:20 AM
What's a Lanner Rm? 1981 was a good year. You're not a bird, but you probably wouldn't label yourself as an Elf. How many are assigned to interfere with my computer, my life, and to try to figure me out?
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From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 29, 2014 11:40 AM
Subject: Re: In case you missed receiving this;
Lanner Rm (1981) I'm a bird!...THEN!
Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad
Subject: In case you missed receiving this;
Date: Thu, May 29, 2014 7:30 AM
Coniferous trees are native in AK, so you could say I'm a Pine Nut?
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From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Thursday, May 29, 2014 9:29 AM
Subject: Re: In case you missed receiving this;
Your an acorn Alaska has but oak NOT NATIVE but they are there ha! Sent from my HTC
----- Reply message -----
From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: "cecil_mad
Subject: In case you missed receiving this;
Date: Wed, May 28, 2014 8:11 PM
No Oak trees in the Big Berg, so I couldn't be an acorn.
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plenty have been in my residence latley what of it i find things left am i elf central? --------------------------------------------
On Tue, 9/30/14, Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> wrote:
Subject: Elf Central better git in line
To: "cecil mad
Date: Tuesday, September 30, 2014, 5:48 AM
Your words: "no mans land
is land not owned or controlled by anyone, theres none in
the u.s.a. the government controls EVERYTHING!!"
Nope.
I will have my teeny tiny (400-500sq) and on a
nice lot that I own, forever and always. And all are
welcomed into my home.
I greet them at the door, and upon exit.
If not, yep, one might get a bit stirred up.
From: Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: cecil l Mad
Sent: Monday, September
29, 2014 11:43 PM
Subject: Re: How bout
stepping it up with the reply key?
Yep. You are as CIA as a hair of a dog is shedded.
Bark up another tree. Yours
is bent, and rotten from the core.
I could tell you how I know but Nazarath sings it
better.Nazareth -
Hair of the Dog
Nazareth
From: cecil mad
<
To: Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Monday, September
29, 2014 4:40 PM
Subject: Re: How bout
stepping it up with the reply key?
im no fed your
no fed niether one of us is cia! and it was a win with her
you know! i had one goal in mind when i started that mission
and it was far better than i expected, its my fault things
turned out the way they did... i get along with you fine, no
mans land is land not owned or controlled by anyone, theres none in the u.s.a. the government controls EVERYTHING!!! not
the elves. im not winston i am me objectionable and boring
maybe but still just me. how much do they pay you to babysit me? you havent commented on my recent trip overseas? or my style of hanging drywall, yes that italian fish mentioned you, that is if your the one who pulled the steak knife on
me.. i seen some people who love me for me... it was nice
for a change, im relieved that a beloved relative is doing
very well, i was concerned but now im not. when you make
more sense ill reply more, can you believe i sent in a
written request for my credit report and they sent me a
letter telling me i had to send in a written request? REALLY???!!!
its like my $600.00 phone bill for going over my unlimited
data! REALLY?????
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On Mon, 9/29/14,
Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
wrote:
Subject: Re: How bout stepping it up with the reply key?
To: "cecil
mad
Date: Monday,
September 29,
2014, 8:03 AM
DAQWYAKTA.
You're about as Fed as Fed can be.
And there are plenty of other questions I've asked that you haven't yet replied to.
Your words: "you aint her"
I know who I am, but not who you are referring to. It's
raining here again today, and I'm a little bit crabby, so let's try to get along for today at least.
From: cecil mad
To: Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Monday, September
29, 2014 10:05 AM
Subject: Re: How bout stepping it up with the reply key?
what did he wrote? you aint her and i aint no elf
what is rdo?
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On Sun, 9/28/14,
Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
wrote:
Subject: How bout stepping it up with the reply key?
To: "Cecil Mad>
Date:Sunday, September 28, 2014, 2:55 PM
It's a slow day next door,and only a few cars behind the razor ribbon earlier today; I supposed the RDO is Sunday,as Elves need a day off now and then to rest
their peering and beady eyes.
Jeff is back on his silent treatment mode,and won't email
me. He has to apologize for something he wrote,
and he's not likely to.
And you have yet to answer most of my questions, including what do the Elves want, and why would I help them with
anything?
I'll be going walking soon, after I finish my salad, so sooner is
better.
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Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
Paula Rose
Oct 20 at 8:41 AM
To cecil mad
Your words, from Oct. 7 email below: "and i know your not a myth nor am i...but the high dive you suggested is not an option.
324 feet from the bottom of the arch, i measured it, i dont like the numbers or the odds."
The September afternoon Gail uttered the statement that she was expecting to receive a large check from "The New World Order," I knew exactly who was running that Chinese Laundry behind her house.
And the NWO doesn't have to make a deal with me, but they'd be smart to do so, as their "intelligence" isn't too wise.
I have a little bit more coffee in the carafe, and a day to find a nice place to rent, and a car wash for the Chariot.
There really is a GOD, and you know that's a true statement, and so do the Elves.
I've taken a silo full of lemons and made gallons of lemonade; the Elves need to operate the Lemonade Stand. Frozen Fiefdom and Run, Tara, Run! are incredible stories that a talented producer can make into an award winning movie; I created the photos for the posters years ago, even before I knew what they would be best suited for.
Take Four!
From: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
To: cecil mad>
Sent: Friday, October 10, 2014 7:40 AM
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
Ding Ding Ding!
Silly me. I should have known you were talking about art and gem smuggling, and the big biz of fakes; how it works, and how the cash is moved around.
I suppose I do "have it all," as in the world is a cesspool of corruption, greed, and evil; all in the name of money.
That's common knowledge; nothing billions of folks around the globe don't know.
But you mentioned several days ago that I do know specific about many things I haven't mentioned or written about. Even I know when not to cross a line or 2.
Sure would be refreshing to see a few others adhere to that "Paulacy." So far, they haven't.
This Cougar ain't no Paper Tiger.
No one wants to hear me roar.
From: cecil mad>
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Friday, October 10, 2014 6:55 AM
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
where do you want to live,? what pit? LETS GO WHEREVER!
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On Thu, 10/9/14, Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> wrote:
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
To: "cecil mad>
Date: Thursday, October 9, 2014, 7:54 PM
Your words:
"wst 13 5 yr d.diamond.t. odd paintings along my
routes when you have nothing you still have
everything,"
What are you talking about?
And could you step it up on the replies? I'm tired, and annoyed, and have to go to sleep early so I can find a place to live tomorrow, and get out of this pit!
From: cecil mad>
To: Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Wednesday,
October 8, 2014 6:13 AM
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
yes the italians and miss m.g. but most of all my former ........ has a bit too much atstake no crazy train here or there bugs im sure of but not concerned about, one should never be too or so happy i maybe a poor ass but it wont be an easy set up... what i lackin social skills i can make up for. im the kinda guy you canstrand on an island with a pocket knife and a Q-TIP!!! andwhen you return you will discover ive built a shopping mall.
TRUCE is always good as im not a war monger, and i
certainly dont like anyone forcing my hand... a take over or
a set up is just that... ive never been to pheonix and i
dont plan on going any time soon. are you an athiest? im a
believer more now than ever before, its puzzling though how i came to be.
there is plenty to like in both of us one just
needs to see beyond the surface. i only have today, ... my
enemys if any know where to find me... Auston Texas
does have some appeall to me. why are so many people angry that i found a job??? im more than skeptical they did and probably still do love me... wst 13 5 yr d.diamond.t. odd paintings along my routes when you have nothing you still have everything, life and hope. HOPE CAN CHANGE ANYTHING!!!
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On Tue, 10/7/14, Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
wrote:
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
To: "cecil mad>
Date: Tuesday,
October 7, 2014, 5:44 PM
I don't do well going up a 6 ft. ladder. Diving boards
and heights are not my best bets but I've seen
what's below and I'm still here.
My enemies have enemies, and all seem to be very interested in me for various and sundry reasons and skills I've had since I
was very young.
Therefore, it appears that if one 'yeahoo' (that's a word my Grammy used instead of something a bit more modern,)
takes me down with illness or injury,
accidental death or a fake suicide, false or set up
imprisonment, some mental health BS breakdown, etc.,
the rest ofthat herd is gunna make a Jew pray for Christmas
and redemption from Jesus, or turn an Atheist into a Believer,
or a whatever into someone who is done unto me.
There is no honor among thieves, and all will take in trade what was taken from them.
I could repeat what I've seen so far today, in part, but I
won't bother. I'm a Mom, and I'm an expert of every type of BM and what it means.
Those who won't call it a draw could use the word truce.
I'm going to Phoenix, and I will have what I need,
and become the Woman I always was meant to be.
From: cecil mad>
To: Paula Rose
<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, October
7, 2014 10:03 AM
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
and i know your not a myth nor am i...
but the high dive you suggested is not an option.
324 feet from the bottom of the arch, i measured it, i dont
like the numbers or the odds.
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On Tue,
10/7/14, Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
wrote:
Subject: Re:Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
To: "cecil mad>
Date: Tuesday, October 7, 2014, 5:37 AM
Let's talk about that of elephants. 3 letter here, 3 letters
there, 4 letters there, 4 letters somewhere, 5 letters here, 5 letters there, 6 letters there, and 6 letters globally.
Probably a few more I don't know about; it's too bad that whatever lettered group that began this entire fiasco simply can't call it a draw, and everyone takes their
weapons and goes home.
I chose Phoenix because this old bird isn't any myth, and I will rise from the ashes of this firestorm upon my life.
From: cecil mad>
To: Paula Rose<paularoseimages@yahoo.com>
Sent: Friday, October 3, 2014 10:17 AM
Subject: Re: Let's just say I'm a bit Skep-Tickle
i dont watch tv havent for
2 years still not making sense, he said he
just couldnt get hold of his demons,???
not at all what i expected to hear,
even i was shocked at that statement and not much suprises
me... i may very well be on display but ive
not yet said any of what i chose not to
say, ill never have all the answeres
as it were i have more ?????? one never really does know???
im disappointed, and very skeptical, i know
theres an elephant or two around here i
just havent figured it all out
yet, i may get trampled on 4 i do... ill be moving soon...
I'm a HERmit, and a dud at social functions. I'll make an exception, and attend the Premier of Frozen Fiefdom, in my beautiful red gown and shoes that will be auctioned off to benefit Alzheimer's Research. I might even make a print of the attached; it would make a nice 3rd movie poster, the other 2 are already known. The not so secret Secret Agent Man will be my escort to the event, and will receive his due share of any royalties and income the best Mystery movie ever made will generate for decades; I couldn't have written most of the story without his participation. ________________________________ From: cecil_mad> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Tuesday, May 20, 2014 11:52 AM Subject: Re: Why did you once Party line big whoop Im having a different party your invited ! Sent from my HTC ----- Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Tue, May 20, 2014 5:45 AM That must be a hell of a way to live, feeling uncertain of your own thoughts and knowledge. And others like to label some as crazy or a variation thereof, simply because they refuse to CONform to the party line. "Freedom is not free." ________________________________
From: cecil_mad> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Tuesday, May 20, 2014 8:26 AM Subject: Re: Why did you once
They don't ask because they use lies and deception to try to get the truth even radio so they assume everyone is like them so they try to create a CONvincing story. But they know of what I know and know most people I know they can't and won't believe that I know things simply by some awfull ability I have to decipher things but my brain sees them but doesn't understand what they mean sometimes I wonder if I have a tumor I can't make sense of it but it bothers people that I'm this way they think I'm crazy when I mention things I often feel crazy as I can't piece it together my mind is always racing I wright things down and later think someone else did it it's not my writing but at times I catch myself writing in a way that is different can't explain it? It seems as though some are out to destroy me and others trying to guide me but I can't remember the details I need only the ones that confuse me tell me why? What do you want from me? Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Tue, May 20, 2014 4:56 AM You don't have to believe my story to know it's true. Yep, I've heard there are 3 letters and more who are interested in me enough to have a looksee now and then, both onshore and offshore. Altho I do wonder why they don't just ask me what they want to know, instead of beating each other up in the bushes, so to speak. ________________________________
From: cecil_made> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Tuesday, May 20, 2014 7:28 AM Subject: Re: Why did you once Your story's are far fetched as if I or you are some kinda terrorist I am not I'm no saint but I've only known a few. Your not one. At least not that I know of bee off to work soon I'm considering leading my own truck have another lead on a driving job from yesterday will be looking into it today after I'm done painting. You keep mentioning thre letter agency watching could be many of them. I hear and I see but I'm blinded by love and faith could very well be the end of me . But I'll jump off that bridge when need be! Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Mon, May 19, 2014 6:31 PM Interesting that you bring up the words of death plot and international thing. I knew I was onto something when I wrote this chapter back in 2008. international_interests_foreign_flings_and_mud_to_sling ________________________________
From: cecil_mad> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Monday, May 19, 2014 10:16 AM Subject: Re: Why did you once Why is someone plotting my death do tell or is it already done and I don't know it because it's an international thing Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Mon, May 19, 2014 4:20 AM Who is hiding from life? Ducking from death is always a good idea.
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From: cecil_mad
To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Monday, May 19, 2014 12:02 AM Subject: Re: Why did you once Ya me too skeptically approaching everyone with calm good cause I should me more carefull but I want to live life not hide from it Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Sun, May 18, 2014 6:38 PM
I have faults, flaws, a flaring temper at times, and gray hairs that need touching up. I'm not really sure about the concept of Heaven, but I know most humans have a soul and it really does leave the body at death. Not sure where it goes, but it is real, as are ghosts. I don't know you enough to dislike you immensely; I tend to be overly skeptical at times about the motives of others. I absolutely do believe in Angels, and I've had more than my share around me during my life, even tho I usually never saw them, I could feel their presence. ________________________________
From: cecil_mad> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Sunday, May 18, 2014 9:22 PM Subject: Re: Why did you once So you dislike me immensely good for you maybe you should give yourself an award for being such an angel the heavens our surely looking forward to your arrival Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Sun, May 18, 2014 5:54 PM
Not a fed, just an ordinary Fabulous Old Broad who likes to poke around and stir up stiffs and stench. I don't get invited to many parties or social events; just my style. I am heavy handed with spiders and insects in my home, but I don't harm humans, even if I dislike them immensely. ________________________________
From: cecil_mad> To: Paula Rose <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> Sent: Sunday, May 18, 2014 8:25 PM Subject: Re: Why did you once
Paula is a tauras Marie (middle name) is a Virgo and Rose is an aqaurias have you left for your walk? And what sharks are you referring too? I'm here if your a fed come arrest me! If you want me dead come kill me I promise no-one will investigate you could cut me into pieces and they would call it suicide. But if you love me come and let me love you! I'm here where are you? Sent from my HTC -----
Reply message ----- From: "Paula Rose" <paularoseimages@yahoo.com> To: "cecil_mad> Subject: Why did you once Date: Sun, May 18, 2014 3:23 PM I'm going to get my butt outta bed, wash my face, put on a bit of makeup, brush my teeth, and go out for a walk. I despise bei
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JR Mey
Rock climbing? YIKES!!! You are WWWAAAAAYYYYYY to adventurous for me. I get dizzy on a step ladder and have almost an urge to jump if looking over the edge of a high place/building. Ever since I was a kid, my sister Anna said (a long time ago) that she gets that same feeling. Creeps me out, so I don't look down from high places. I'm a stroll in the meadow, kayaking, leisure pace kinda gal. I have a bicycle, but I don't like having to pay attention when I'm riding, for cars, etc. So I stick to the bike path and walk most of the time instead. Well, do tell. What did you do next to a waterfall that was so fun? I enjoy a tasty meal, and I'm a fairly decent cook. But I'm also lazy in the kitchen; I'd rather eat than cook. It can take an hour or two to make some of my favorite things, so I eat lots of pasta, fast food, fruit, tuna, deli chicken, etc. Yes, I'm sure the Gremlins are enjoying our exchanges, and are gathering ideas left and right. Sure would be nice to have a paycheck for all my effort, and not a chance of a double dip on the health insurance; I don't have any now. Which is fine, I'm very healthy and don't believe in all the screening for cancer, etc. I have a friend who had breast cancer when she was 40, and the side effects of the meds, treatments have left her in constant pain, lost all her teeth, etc. for the last 12 years. Now she has a tumor in her skull, and one on her liver. About another 1.5 years max. We talked about it in Dec., and she said she remembered at the time when I said I wasn't sure I'd have done all those treatments, because the stress of them, and worry "is it coming back", etc. ruins one's life. She said "Ya know, you might have been right about that." Gotta go. I'm checking on alternatives for retirement $, and US Treasuries are an option. The fund has returned 10.95% since April 26, 2010. That's damn good $ for such a short time. Should continue if the markets continue to dive. --- On Fri, 7/16/10, Jr Me> wrote:
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