FROZEN FIEFDOM 

A Round Robin of Emails

 

 

What began as a series of emails between Shannon and me; somehow morphed into a blazing blitz of BS by my family members.  I have so many emails; it's a huge job to hunt and sift, because some used the reply button at times, others not.  You'll get the idea for these below that "Something's Up," as many are yammering on with plenty of words, but never about whatever topic or event fired them all up.  Everybody wanted to get in the act, and felt free to voice their opinion about whatever "problem" they thought that I might have; sure would have been helpful if they had addressed whatever it was.  

 

When I smell Dead Fish, I know what that means, in my frame of reference.  And when I see BS in writing; there's no doubt about it.  

 

In the spirit of keeping a most unusual situation light, you'll see my sense of humor come through in the most of the emails.  We are all known for our rather dry sense of humor and have used nickname monikers in the past.  Mark chose "Jim Rockford" for himself years ago.  We all enjoyed "The Rockford Files" TV series as kids.  

 

 

Paula Rose > wrote:

Date: Mon, 12 Nov 2007 11:37:55 -0800 (PST)
From: Paula Rose < >
Subject: RE: What mystery?
To: Anna >, Eric >,
'Valerie >
CC:, 'Mark. >,
Mom,  Dad

Dear Anna,

 

Glad to see you have added Mom and Dad to the round robin.  We've all be getting on rather well; past relations all considered. 

 

  No "fear or anger filled universe" in my life; perhaps you need a reality check on yours? 

 

Lighten up!!!  Breathe.  

 

"Meditate on it"  (Johnny Cash) 

 

Love, PR
________________________________________

Anna > wrote:

 

Dear Paula,

If you don't realize the truth of what your daughter
wrote to you, nothing that any of the rest of us say
is going to sink in.

If indeed Val's peace of mind is of utmost importance
to you, please pay attention to her request that you
get some help. If you don't know where to start,
please contact the one of us you trust the most and
ask. Ask Mom or Dad right now. Any of us would do
anything in our power to assist you in locating the
appropriate professionals, and would wholeheartedly
support you while you worked with them toward health.

You are my sister, Paula, and I love you. I cannot
help you find a "truth" that only exists in your fear-
and anger-filled universe, but I am absolutely, always
willing to help you seek health in this one.

Anna



--- Paula Rose wrote:

> Well written, Val !! And very refreshing to see in
> writing your assessment of me. It's always good to
> know what others think of one. Please list whatever
> I "have been saying or doing in the last few months"
> which has made you uncomfortable and concerned.
> Your peace of mind is of utmost importance to me,
> and I hope you and Dan'l are doing better and can
> remain friends.
>
> With so much staging and posturing going on by
> everyone (myself included, what a film industry
> moneymaker this story should be!!), it would be
> difficult to ascertain which and whose behavior has
> been the most unusual. Anna phoned me yesterday and
> claims to not have a copy of the "Missing Persons"
> report she said she filed on me, and which Eric said
> he saw, and Shannon said she provided the photo for
> it. Anna, please procure a copy from whichever
> official agency you filed it with and email us all
> an official copy. None of the law enforcement
> officers I see in my daily travels has ever asked me
> about it, and certainly didn't stop to inquire
> directly as they passed by me during whatever
> timeframe you had me listed as "missing."
>
> Yo, "Jim"! I'm with you. Gail's watched
> waaaaaayyyy to many Bond flicks, and should just
> hire on to an agency. Anna can meditate, light
> incense, and bang the gong for serenity, she's had
> enough police action. You and I can open a PI
> agency "Dead Fish and Rotten Bodies." Slogan can
> be: "Stink and Flies? We're your Private Eyes."
> $250 per hour, plus expenses.
>
> Love, Emma Peel
> >>______________________________________________________

 

 

 
>
> Eric);}
>) }
> Wow Val! Your e-mail is by far the best and most
> heartfelt one I have seen. You put the older
> members of your family, and Paula’s friends, to
> shame.
>
> You are a terrific person Val. Paula, read Val’s
> e-mail, because it is all true, and better said than
> anyone yet.
>
> EWS
>
>
>
>
>
> ---------------------------------
>
> From: Valerie]
> Sent: Saturday, November 10, 2007 8:32 PM
> To: Paula Rose;; Eric;
> Mark; Anna
> Subject: RE: What mystery?
>
> >
> Right, so..."Something has been Created; my goal is
> to find out why, and what the payoffs are for the
> individuals, and the funding source" is not
> mysterious? Sounds more like the plot for a
> quasi-futuristic sci-fi fantasy movie/book. Guess
> what? They all suck. Trying to chase after
> conspiracy theories is a waste of time.
>
> Unless you've stumbled upon some kind of
> white-collar crime and you are going to do some
> whistle-blowing, I suggest you either get some help
> for your illusions or snap back into reality. I
> would suggest the former, as whatever is keeping
> your brain from firing on all synapses definitely
> has the potential to be not only permanently
> damaging but even life threatening. Neurological
> problems are nothing to sneeze at. The world needs
> Paula and I need my mom - no one needs another
> crazed bag lady.
>
> I love you, mom, and I want you to understand that
> what you have been saying and doing in recent months
> is not healthy. It is heartbreaking that you cannot,
> or will not, see that your behavior is potentially
> harmful and that it is a very real, very scary
> "thrill ride" for the rest of us. Your paranoia,
> paired with this vague and flippant attitude, only
> exacerbates the pain and fear we all feel for you.
> It is so disheartening to me to see you on this
> destructive path and refusing to allow the people
> who love you to help you, or at least help you help
> yourself.
>
> ---------------------------------
>
> Date: Sat, 10 Nov 2007 10:42:25 -0800
> From:  Paula Rose
> Subject: Re: What mystery?
> To: Gail; Val;
>Eric; Mark;
> Anna

 

> Gail sent her reply to Shannon and me. Thought
> I'd include everyone in mine.
>
>
>
> I didn't lose anything. Something has been
> Created; my goal is to find out why, and what the
> payoffs are for the individuals, and the funding
> source.
>
>
>
> Sign up for your next "Mission" Natasha! The
> KGB is always hiring. All other 3 lettered
> organizations are breathlessly awaiting your next
> move.
>
> >
> Love, Babuska
>
>  
>
>
> gail wrote:
>
>
> I am pretty good at finding mystery in
> anything...Paula did you lose a couple weeks of your
> memory? If so, you came out of it alright. do you
> really need to "find" it? You can be assured it is
> your next thought, move, "agenda" your friends and
> family are thinking of. not your past. Are you
> going through menopause?
>
> More dreams! Very cool!
> love, Gail
>

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Date:	Thu, 8 Nov 2007 12:25:26 -0800 (PST)
From:	"Shannon >  Add to Address Book  Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more
Subject:	Re: A sunny Sunday
To:	"Paula Rose" <>
CC:	"Eric >, "Eric, Anna, "Mark >, gail ,Valerie

Hi Paula - 

It is unfortunate that you find the missing person
report so funny.  

I assure you Val, Claire, Eric, Anna, Mark, Gail and
I did not find any of it amusing.  We were trying to
ascertain who would be the best person to initiate the
report.  (It is best done by a family member).  I
provided a current photo for it.  Yes, contrary to
your beliefs, we (sibs included) were truly worried
about you and your well-being).  

We will never know if you were traveling, were in an
alcohol rehab facility, were holed up in your bedroom
or any other conclusion we could jump to.  Only you
know what the true circumstances were.  As I mentioned
previously, I am comfortable with my "level of over
reaction" exhibited on your behalf.  I did what a good
friend who loves you would do and I'd do the same
again in a heartbeat.

Eric and myself are not family, Val had enough going
on with moving south and Anna (having previous
experience in MP reports) said she'd do it and she did
(Jewel told Anna she filed one as well). I know
Val/Anna/Gail/Eric spoke to Jewel, Steve, Lian, Jerry
and others out of concern for you.  All of them
inicated you were behaving strangely and out of
character.

I know Anna was in Juneau (on her cruise) and was with
Beth when she was talking to the PD, so I'm sure Beth
can confirm these events for you as my word is so
untrusted.

You, being the MP, are entitled to your very own copy
of the MP report, just contact the Tarzana PD for it. 
Val contacted a number of PDs trying to get the right
jurisdiction.

I don't find any of this "interesting" as you do. 

Even serial killers get a chance to defend themselves
in their day in court.  Apparently I do not.

Do not move to Juneau with the intention of solving
this "mystery" on my account.  It really isn't
necessary.  What is done is done.  I will not be able
to convince you that I did not betray you.  If your
belief that I betrayed you caused all of this to
happen then I no longer wish to have such a huge
responsibility.  Ceasing contact with your girls due
to upset with me is wrong.  Upsetting and worrying
them is unforgiveable.

Just as you no longer trust me, the reverse is true. I
no longer trust your judgment and I do not wish to be
vulnerable to further hurt.  You know all of my
secrets, just as I know what you have chosen to tell
me.  Apparently secrets have become ammunition in some
sort of battle that I wish no part of.  Intimacy and
trust are not easy for either of us and will be even
more difficult as a result of all this drama.

I have received nothing positive since July for the
privilege of "being your friend".  Only a lot of
negatives, I've devoted way to much time, worry,
effort and emotion to this whole "chain reaction" as
you put it.  Terry and my kids deserve better as do I.

I am forwarding copies to all involved as this ends my
involvement in your life.

Good luck, be happy, enjoy your terrific girls and
remember life is short.

  I've enjoyed and appreciated our good times, thank
you for the memories.  Be well.

SM 

--- Paula Rose <> wrote:

> Hi Shan,
>    
>   Very interesting, indeed.  Amazing how a few well
> chosen words by some can set off such an enormous
> chain reaction.  I'm waiting for Anna to send me a
> copy of that Missing Persons report.  That will be
> worth framing.  
>    
>   It's all a big mysterious circle, so I'll be
> starting at one end and work it backwards.  Could
> take much time to put it all together.
>    
>   Everyone has a different point of view; which in
> turn, colors their purpose and sets their agenda.  
>  
> 

__________________________________________________

 

Date:	Mon, 29 Oct 2007 12:33:23 -0700 (PDT)
From:	"Shannon"
Subject:	Re: A sunny Sunday
To:	"Paula Rose"

...Your dealings with your girls are none of my business.
(of course I love all of you and want everyone to be
happy and hated to see them  and me worried and
upset).

I don't really know what you are referring to about
the strange goings on in Juneau or what puzzle you
hope to solve.  So I can't really offer assistance in
that regard.

Going from prounouncing you are never talking to
anyone in Juneau again to moving here seems a bit
inconsistent.

I do feel you acted badly toward me and that I deserve
better treatment.  It was as painful as getting dumped
by a significant other would have been.  You do not
sound willing to take any responsibility in any of
this.  As a result, I will be proceeding very
cautiously in future relationships.  I have enough
stressors in my life without unexplained drama.

Happy Halloween and enjoy your heatwave.  Hope the
fire stays south of your area.  It is a balmy 38
degrees and raining at the moment.

Love you

Shannon

--- Paula Rose > wrote:

> Lattice work was a success!!
> 
> As the saying goes, one has to be able to look in
> the mirror.  We all make Choices, and being
> comfortable with them is most important. 
> 
> Suicide?  Not a chance.  
> 
> Trouble in what?  
> 
> All the feigned "concern and worry" from my sibs,
> etc. was a crock.  How unfortunate that they dragged
> you into it. They and I have had months without
> regular contact for most of our lives.  Anna's
> missing persons report she says she filed was a
> waste of Police time, being as I was physically in
> residence at Jewel's house most of the time I was
> supposedly "missing." 
> 
> I do regret that I didn't purchase phone card to
> call my girls, but I thought they were receiving the
> emails.  Finally bought a new phone a month or so
> ago, it was kinda nice not having one!!   I had
> countless technical computer hardware and software
> malfunctions, and internet security failures the
> last several months at Jewel's house.  Still have
> many, but fewer.
> 
>  I've reconsidered all the facts, some of which
> seemed credible at first glance, and decided that
> living in J town will provide me the opportunity to
> check things out in depth, and most importantly,
> spend time with Val and Claire.  When things don't
> add up, I start asking questions.  That tends to
> make some people varying degrees of  uncomfortable,
> as if they are hiding something.  Very strange,
> indeed.    Perhaps you will be able to share your
> expertise in word wizardry and law enforcement
> techniques so I can solve the puzzle.  Of course,
> your choosing to say No is fine.  
> 
> On the lighter side, any AF or TK sightings?  I
> almost had a date in FL a few weeks ago with David
> (he's the one I flew to Miami with for the day to
> have his plane serviced a year or so ago, and an old
> fling of Anna's), but I decided to leave before we
> had time to get together again.  Saw his new condo
> project in the works, WOW.  And few buyers in sight,
> according to him.  Hope it works out.  Don't know
> why he was ever interested in me as "dating
> material"  but some men find that sister thing
> intriguing.  
> 
> Love, PR
> 
>  > > 
> 
> Shannon  wrote:
> Hello Again -
> 
> 
> I am comfortable with my "level of over reaction". 
> I
> would have been forever uncomfortable had I done
> nothing and had you been in trouble or in danger of
> committing suicide (as you have mentioned has been
> contemplated in the past).  
> 
> Since we did not have a falling out (that I am aware
> of) and you declared in July you wished no further
> contact with me or "anyone in Juneau", it is not a
> situation I ever thought I'd be placed in so I am
> unclear what I should or should not do.
> 
> "Minding my own business" would be easy with anyone
> else.  
> 
> If the roles were reversed I'd hope you would not
> just
> say okay and cease contact but would be curious
> enough
> to wonder why I was acting out of character and
> ending
> a 30 year friendship and not staying in contact with
> my children. 
> 
> Dropping out is certainly your perogative as it is
> anyones.  You are in the drivers seat for setting
> boundaries on friendships.  But I am glad to be
> hearing from you again and I hope to continue to.
> 
> Hugs SM
> 
>   
> --- Paula Rose  wrote:
> 
> > Hi Shan,
> > 

>   >  > > 
> > The level of overreaction by everyone to my being
> > unreachable by phone or email for a short time was
> > truly amazing, considering you had my physical
> > address.  That entire setup was one great act
> played
> > out by all; worthy of Academy Awards.  You should
> > have seen Gail in action, I played her to the
> hilt. 
> > For the record, she gives herself credit of some
> > "psychic hit"  for finding my address.  But hey,
> > everyone has their own agenda. You would have
> loved
> > it, right up your people watching ally.    The
> world
> > keeps turning and the piper keeps on playing.  Who
> > needs TV?  
> > 
> > Val said she probably won't be working at the
> Legis.
> > this upcoming session either.  She thinks their is
> > probably someone else already selected for the
> > position she had.  I suggested she try other
> > senate/reps. but with classes and all , she'll
> most likely work at the adult shop/mailboxes.  
> > 
> > Out to help the new share put up some lattice.  
> > 
> > Love, PR
> > 
> > >